The fellowships force us down a blind alley in our recovery

usThe Ten Stages contemplates

 self-reflection on where our acting out behaviour might have come from we make an acknowledgement that our disturbed patterns are simply a replication of the traumas done to us when we were vulnerable and innocent and powerless in our families as a child, We will not admit all the bad things that we have done to others, and not only that, we will not cement this list of our badness into place by admitting it to this externalised God (which we are not convinced is separate from the essence of us!) and to us who buy into this deluded and dissociative philosophy.

The fellowships force us down a blind alley, and further cutting ourself off the from deeper root of ourself and our child within.