I came to believe that fostering a sense of recovery within the community in Saltburn ,had spiritual benefits that I’ve never seen before. There is total trust amongst the people who have completed the work, because they work together.In mutual trust and consent. I wanted to soak it up and emulate the shared experience of doing the steps all together with the people in the Saltburn Recovery Community.
Maybe if I continuously repeated the steps, I’d start to feel better in my own recovery. Each day I got more and more relaxed. All the research shows that healing and wellness restoration happens when the body is relaxed. I started to understand that a sense of community was fostering this sense of wellness and restoration in all parts of my life. I immediately realised that I was scared to relax frightened by the world. I dug a little deeper and became aware that I felt that if I relaxed or “let my guard down” something “bad” would happen. I had lost my ability to trust.I was in a constant state of anxiety. I felt I constantly needed masks or cloaks of deceit to function in society. I judged people who were intent in giving me the best possible chance at recovery as the hated enemy.I suffered from the delusions of addiction.
But mutually doing the steps I realised we all shared these fears and bounded in a common relaxing program of recovery without the fear.Life started to take on new meaning. My body started to recover, my mind became still and I entered into a new relationship with my creator and the community.
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