keeping me debilitated in recovery from moving forward for a long time I recognised my relationship dependencies. It was easier to stay closed down than it was to open back up. But I made a promise to myself to never let the pain of the past dictate the choices of my present. That is to say, I asked my heart to become stronger instead of risk becoming less scary. I decided to try my best to stay open, rather than let fear win and close down.
The truth is that we are here to learn and The higher power teaches us best through contrast (aka pain). So slowly, but surely, I decided to open up.
I still tiptoe into new situations; it is scary for me to open up to one person.
Part of me still judges myself as my former relationships judged me. Sometimes my inner critic is the loudest voice in my head, but I still keep the intention to be open and vulnerable.
The only other option is to close down. And when you do that, you end up starving yourself of the most important thing on earth - love.
Most importantly, stay open and receptive to new love, new friendship and new partnership. Being receptive to new people and outcomes is where the magic really happens.
I'm wishing you all the best from my heart that you are released of this resentments from your past that is now a poison of your present moment. You may think it will take more time to get over them, but your higher power is ready, RIGHT NOW, to give you love, to give you peace and serenity.
This would mean letting go of the outcome and just being present. It would mean being vulnerable rather being perfect. That's how to create a life of loving recovery relationships. Recovery is always right there for you.
Your job is to open up and let it in.
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